Recently I realized that being ‘lazy’ is my choice. When I can learn something new, do some tasks at work, I am consciously not trying to do it. I know that I am able to do it, but I don’t want that ‘success’. I may be able to do things that others can’t do, why try, if it brings me new responsibilities. I really love my freedom, and time that I have for myself. Even now, when I have opportunity to get new technical skills (i am studying a course for data analysis after work) and get a promotion, I choose to not try hard. So, why does it happening with me? I wrote my problem to ChatGPT, and it suggested me to define for myself the word ‘success’. For the person as independent as I am, the freedom comes first. I guess the for me success is having own agency, not working in corporation, and making own researches. From my experience at work I know that I am not team player, I better think when I think on my own. I don’t want to be team leader, I don’t even want to be a part of team. Having big projects in my portfolio does not motivate me. I really don’t care.
